Weekend =D

I love weekends. I really do because I can make my mega breakfast (grill cheese, sausage, eggs, and coffee), sit down, eat it, and read the Bible at the same time. It's mmm mmm good.

It was a beautiful weekend in Hamilton. Hahaa this is only my 2nd weekend in Hamilton lol. I've been having the urge to go biking for the longest time. I just get very exhausted after work and have very little energy to go biking. But the past weekend was awesome!

The weather was perfect! Clear sky, nice breeze, smooth bike trails mmmm :) Makes me so happy hahaa. And of course, the company =D I really needed this. Haha such an adventurous day! I also went to Webster's Falls after service that afternoon. Such beautiful scenery :)

Climbing around the the foot of the waterfall made me feel like Pocahontas bwahaha! Like you know... that scene when she's like climbing around to check out John Smith. hahaha. LOL too bad there weren't any John Smith's there. That would have been a bonus! =P Anyways, we went back home to have a nice little bbq dinner. YUMMMS! And watched Planet Earth... watched animals eating each other as we ate animals.

Went to another church on Sunday. It was a nice little trip from home to dt...busing there and walking from the bus stop. Dt Hamilton is sooo quiet on Sunday's O_O Barely anyone was on the street. I think the few who were out were going to their churches.

After church I decided to go shopping at Lime Ridge and check things out. On my way to take the bus, I bumped into one of my clients. The client got d/c a few days before and I didn't say bye, but it was nice to see the client that day. Seeing the client made my heart really warm because I can see how happy the client is and how things are working out so well. I can't stop smiling now :)

Bought myself a few things at the mall. Things were pretty cheap and I got my pay... so why not? =P I must say... it was pretty satisfying. I wouldn't even let myself stop and ask if I really need this. I didn't want to break the streak. I wanted a small celebration and congratulate myself for making it this far =D

Bought some Harvey's to go and took it back to a friend's place and watched the World Cup. Since Spain took out Portugal and Germany, I naturally cheered for Netherlands (I even purposely bought an orange top that day just for that... and also b/c I don't have orange) Too bad Netherlands lost, but overall it was a good game. I kinda had a feeling that Spain would take it home. But tis all goods.

yea... it was good.

sigh...

been a while since i last painted...

i think i can start doing that again.

i bought a new brush :)

i'm going to paint some sort of flower...

been a while since i last listened to some of my favourite songs...

i think i can start listening to them again.

but i'll just start with a few at a time...

don't want to overwhelm myself.

Only if they knew

Hamilton oh Hamilton! How sketch art thou!

Not every part of Hamilton is sketch lol. There are some nicer places around =) However! The bus stop that I wait at everyday is right outside a porn shop... so I do see a lot of different people around. Sometimes I do move to wait at the next bus stop... but still... there are people who seem to be "high" around that corner.


Waiting waiting waiting. Thinking thinking thinking. Seeing how the women are dressed, how the men interact, the words they use, the look on their faces makes me think: Only if they knew God.

My purpose in this post isn't to judge other people, call them names and condemning them to hell. It is not. I simply want to say that only if they knew God, then they would know that there is so much more, that they themselves are worth so much more, and that life is so much more satisfying.

Yesterday, someone asked me if I would go on a ride with a hot guy on a nice motorcycle if he asked me to. Seriously? To be honest... I thought that was a dumb question. Who the heck would get on ride with a stranger? But I knew what the person meant. I think he was asking if I would take a good looking guy (I think). My answer was: "I'm too good for that!" (Just for laughs though)

But for reals, I am too good for that. Hahaha! If that's all the guy got, then yes, I am too good for that. I'm not being cocky/ snobby here. It's just very hard for me to respect men who have nothing inside. Screw the looks, the money, the nice car or whatever! I really don't care. I know that I am a daughter of God and that I have everything I ever need, ever imagine in Him. God fulfills all the things I lack. In fact, His giving overflows!

I really wish the women knew that they don't need to dress like that to get love; they're already loved! I wish the men knew that they don't need to get high in order to escape life; they're already free! They can actually have everything they need and they can actually get and keep it! But it seem as though it's a never ending chase and a never ending wait. I know that my ride will come and I don't have to scramble to make it come; it's not a never ending chase; not a never ending wait. (duhh... it says on the bus schedule lol)

Truth is: My Lord and God is coming back very soon.
Fact is: We can have satisfaction in this life in just knowing God.

I'm very very happy to know that God is here all along. It just breaks my heart when people don't and can't see God for who He really is and turn to worldly things instead. Not to say that I'm giving up on reaching out to others, it just saddens me to see hopelessness across their faces.

"...Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me..." Psalms 23:4

Psalm 23

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures,

he leads me beside quiet waters,

he restores my soul.

He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

Even though I walk

through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil

for you are with me;

your rod and your staff,

they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me

in the presence of my enemies.

You anoint my head with oil;

my cup overflows.

Surely goodness and love will follow me

all the days of my life,

and I will dwell in the house of the Lord

forever.

FIFA!!!

When I was sitting there watching a game last Monday, memories of the previous World Cup came floating around. I'm still into watching... just no one to watch with as often this time. Last time I watched with my friends from highschool and teachers hahaa. The principal bought a flat screen and placed it in the hall so everyone skipped class to watch the games! It was pdg.

This time I definitely feel older and more mature (SURPRISE!) More surprisingly, it was only 4 years ago when I was still very imature. Especially in the ways I see things and think about them. Last time I watched religiously so I can see more of Cristiano Ronaldo's sexy face =P

But that's not the point here ok? What I meant by more mature and seeing things differently is that my thoughts in general are more structured and not from nonsense. It's a pretty funny and happy feeling when I realized that as I sat there watching the game.

Ronaldo is sexy regardless (bwahahaa), but I find him less attractive this time hmmmm...

Let Love Speak

One very important thing that (I believe) many Christians (I know) forget to do is letting our actions speak. In the past, I've noticed that many of us use theology and reasoning to speak... louder and louder and louder and louder and louder. Literally.

I'm not saying that using theology and reasoning to explain something is wrong. If you know your theology well and know how to explain your thoughts, you are very much blessed my friend =) It's true. But there's a problem...

Many times when a small group of us try to explain something to a person within the group who may be new to Christianity or have a different interpretation, "discussion" starts. The reason I used "discussion" is because it doesn't always end up to be like what it started out as, a discussion. A lot of times it ends up with just two and most of the time just one person taking over the "discussion".

I really think that it is alright if people who know their stuff well to speak up if the discussion isn't going in the right direction. But what I have a problem with is the tone of voice people use to "redirect" the conversation.

What happens is that when people try to redirect the conversation, their volume gets louder and louder and louder and louder. So I'm sitting there thinking....hmmmm my dear brother/ sister, what you are saying is absolutely right, but person x sitting across the table from you will NOT listen to what you have to say, even if it makes sense. Why? Because it sounds like you're yelling at him/her!

A very important thing I learned from Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller is that "People will not listen to you unless they can feel that you love them."

In a more recent conversation I shared with a dear sister, a similar topic came about. We both have done some unloving things to those around us (ie. gossip, choice of words, tone of voice). Some things we mentioned weren't necessarily done purposely to hurt others, but because of (ie.) not wanting to share food/ dishes/ whatever it was, it came out through our body language. And the people who we were "sharing" with felt it. What happens now is that their perceptions of us are (/could be) stingy, hardarse, self-seeking, blablabla, and basically unloving.

We're not like that anymore. We may slip here and there at times, but our previous initial response is definitely not the same. It's a really good thing for us and we can't thank God enough for the transformation.

One bad thing though... the things we have done to others still lingers; their perception is still there. Not to say that people are unforgiving, but psychologically, it takes around 5 good comments to make up for 1 bad comment D:

So how does all this connect? Well... let's say there is a spiritual problem you see in a brother/ sister and it is very concerning, so you try to talk to them about it. BUT even though you now speak in love, they may disregard it because of what you may have done before. There's sort of a wall in between...

Well of course you still try right? And if there are anymore problems between you and the brother/ sister, it's better to settle the matter sooner than later.

But I think for now... if words are not listened to, it is better to let loving actions speak and to continually pray faithfully.

Ugly rips =="

In the past few years, I noticed that I can't rip toilet paper properly. So frustrating sometimes! Argh! Like I'm trying to make a perfect rip so I can fold it properly, but somehow, just SOMEHOW, I always rip off a bit or half of the next piece of toilet paper. So I would try to rip that half piece off so it looks more perfect, but I end up ripping a bit of the next piece off too! ARGH!

This also happens with paper towel and aluminum foil. It really bugs me! >=O