It was never in our powers

So I walked in on a man watching a Christian show last week and I asked if he was Christian. He said that he's trying to be and wants to get back to it but it has been very difficult for him to follow everything because he always stumbles (ie. forgiving someone 77 times). I wanted to talk to him then, but I think he wanted to watch the show. And thinking that I have the week after to talk to him, it wouldn't matter if I didn't take time to sit down and talk to him more about it.

I was pretty excited to go back to work the on Monday, wanting to look for an opportunity to shed some light on him. Wanting to feel the excitement of sharing the gospel. Wanting to have another "god" story to tell my friends after I spoke with him.

I was bummed out when I found out that he left without notice over the weekend. That feeling sucked. It was short and instant, but it sucked because I knew that I only wanted to speak to him for selfish reasons. It wasn't for God. After that short moment passed, I remembered that it was never/ ever will be in our powers to control when God meets someone.

God is the only one who is and forever will be sovereign over all things.

Psalms 30

1 I will exalt you, LORD, for you lifted me out of the depths and did not let my enemies gloat over me.

2 LORD my God, I called to you for help, and you healed me. 3 You, LORD, brought me up from the realm of the dead; you spared me from going down to the pit.

4 Sing the praises of the LORD, you his faithful people; praise his holy name.

5 For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

6 When I felt secure, I said, "I will never be shaken." 7 LORD, when you favored me, you made my royal mountain stand firm; but when you hid your face, I was dismayed.

8 To you, LORD, I called; to the Lord I cried for mercy: 9 "What is gained if I am silenced, if I go down to the pit? Will the dust praise you? Will it proclaim your faithfulness? 10 Hear, LORD, and be merciful to me; LORD, be my help."

11 You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, 12 that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent. LORD my God, I will praise you forever.