I found a job in my field a month ago. So far it's alright... I'm still trying to get to know the system/ work dynamic there. A bit hard to... I find that things can get pretty unorganized :S Though work can be stressful at times due to lack of organization, my co-workers are great to work with. What a blessing! And I think most of the ppl in my department are Christians too. Haha so it's not too awkward to talk about church lol.
One of my family cars broke down completely so all 5 of us are sharing one car. It's ok, but it's really hard to share sometimes simply because we all have things to do at different times away from home and need the car. Originally, dad wanted me to buy a new one... uh no. bwahahaa LOL yea forget that man. I'll never finish paying off osap debt.
But with this incident, I found myself to constantly think about money... how to split my earnings and how to spend. It's good to think about it as I am responsible for what I do with the money/doing budgeting and all. But the sad thing was that it's always on my mind. It was stressful to think about. Though I am splitting my earnings appropriately on what is needed, I feel that my life is controlled by how much is earned :S It's such a confining feeling... trapped almost? I don't like it.
There are things I want to do and places I'd like to go to but I can't because it's not in the budget.
To some degree, I feel like everyone else... settled and working for a "life". I want to live for God and not live to pay the bills lol. I'm practically doing the same things right now as my training during co-op. But there's a huge difference between my attitude towards work and ppl then and now. It has a lot to do with perspective and where my eyes are at... God or money.
It could be because I actually have to be responsible and fully commit to a job for more than 4 months. But still... :(
