Sooo STressed Out D:

**deep breaths** .............ok **deep breaths again**

I am soo stressed out at work ='( Stressed with a capital T. LOL. I feel like my heart is skipping a few beats sometimes and breathing gets a bit hard O_O so stressed out.

I still enjoy work very very much though =) I had to be pretty independent in the past week b/c my boss is on vacation, so I was running programs on my own. Which is very fun btw. Other work like organizing baseball tournament is starting to get to me. It would be way easier if it was just one or the other.

Hahaha I can't wait till the baseball thing is over! Ok manman! You can do this! Just need to find out around how many ppl will show up and then order stuff...

...and then, I remembered that I have an outing to plan for this coming Friday =="... it's ok... it's ok...

...and then, I remembered that I forgot to rent/ borrow a movie to use on the unit... it's ok... it's ok...

...and then, I realized how little time I have.

Above all this, I just wanted to say:

BWAaaaaaaAAAAAAAAHHHH)(&^%*$#$%@&*)(r*)&@(*$^(*&_*(@&^%$rfg.

and that God is still very good to me :) mmmmmhmmmm

Sunday School

The past Sunday School class teacher asked us a question and I'm sure that this question would be beneficial for everyone who goes to church as well...

If one day, all the people you became comfortable with, became friends with, built a community with at your current church/fellowship, all slowly moved away, would you still be as excited and enthusiastic about going to church, service, worship, and fellowship ?

hmmmmmmmm >:)

Forgiveness, the cement of community life

This was taken from Philpott Memorial Church's July 11th bulletin:

Community is not possible without the willingness to forgive one another "77 times" (Matt. 18:22). Forgiveness is the cement of community life. Forgiveness holds us together through good & bad times & it allows us to grow in mutual love.

But what is there to forgive or to ask forgiveness for? As people who have hearts that long for perfect love, we have to forgive one another for not being able to give or receive that perfect love in our everyday lives. Our many needs constantly interfere with our desire to be therefore the other unconditionally. Our love is always limited by spoken or unspoken conditions. What needs to be forgiven? We need to forgive one another for not being God! (from Bread For the Journey, A Daybook of Wisdom & Faith, Henri J. M. Nouwen, 1997)

Fine. ARGH! Oh dear... hahaha.

Weekend =D

I love weekends. I really do because I can make my mega breakfast (grill cheese, sausage, eggs, and coffee), sit down, eat it, and read the Bible at the same time. It's mmm mmm good.

It was a beautiful weekend in Hamilton. Hahaa this is only my 2nd weekend in Hamilton lol. I've been having the urge to go biking for the longest time. I just get very exhausted after work and have very little energy to go biking. But the past weekend was awesome!

The weather was perfect! Clear sky, nice breeze, smooth bike trails mmmm :) Makes me so happy hahaa. And of course, the company =D I really needed this. Haha such an adventurous day! I also went to Webster's Falls after service that afternoon. Such beautiful scenery :)

Climbing around the the foot of the waterfall made me feel like Pocahontas bwahaha! Like you know... that scene when she's like climbing around to check out John Smith. hahaha. LOL too bad there weren't any John Smith's there. That would have been a bonus! =P Anyways, we went back home to have a nice little bbq dinner. YUMMMS! And watched Planet Earth... watched animals eating each other as we ate animals.

Went to another church on Sunday. It was a nice little trip from home to dt...busing there and walking from the bus stop. Dt Hamilton is sooo quiet on Sunday's O_O Barely anyone was on the street. I think the few who were out were going to their churches.

After church I decided to go shopping at Lime Ridge and check things out. On my way to take the bus, I bumped into one of my clients. The client got d/c a few days before and I didn't say bye, but it was nice to see the client that day. Seeing the client made my heart really warm because I can see how happy the client is and how things are working out so well. I can't stop smiling now :)

Bought myself a few things at the mall. Things were pretty cheap and I got my pay... so why not? =P I must say... it was pretty satisfying. I wouldn't even let myself stop and ask if I really need this. I didn't want to break the streak. I wanted a small celebration and congratulate myself for making it this far =D

Bought some Harvey's to go and took it back to a friend's place and watched the World Cup. Since Spain took out Portugal and Germany, I naturally cheered for Netherlands (I even purposely bought an orange top that day just for that... and also b/c I don't have orange) Too bad Netherlands lost, but overall it was a good game. I kinda had a feeling that Spain would take it home. But tis all goods.

yea... it was good.

sigh...

been a while since i last painted...

i think i can start doing that again.

i bought a new brush :)

i'm going to paint some sort of flower...

been a while since i last listened to some of my favourite songs...

i think i can start listening to them again.

but i'll just start with a few at a time...

don't want to overwhelm myself.

Only if they knew

Hamilton oh Hamilton! How sketch art thou!

Not every part of Hamilton is sketch lol. There are some nicer places around =) However! The bus stop that I wait at everyday is right outside a porn shop... so I do see a lot of different people around. Sometimes I do move to wait at the next bus stop... but still... there are people who seem to be "high" around that corner.


Waiting waiting waiting. Thinking thinking thinking. Seeing how the women are dressed, how the men interact, the words they use, the look on their faces makes me think: Only if they knew God.

My purpose in this post isn't to judge other people, call them names and condemning them to hell. It is not. I simply want to say that only if they knew God, then they would know that there is so much more, that they themselves are worth so much more, and that life is so much more satisfying.

Yesterday, someone asked me if I would go on a ride with a hot guy on a nice motorcycle if he asked me to. Seriously? To be honest... I thought that was a dumb question. Who the heck would get on ride with a stranger? But I knew what the person meant. I think he was asking if I would take a good looking guy (I think). My answer was: "I'm too good for that!" (Just for laughs though)

But for reals, I am too good for that. Hahaha! If that's all the guy got, then yes, I am too good for that. I'm not being cocky/ snobby here. It's just very hard for me to respect men who have nothing inside. Screw the looks, the money, the nice car or whatever! I really don't care. I know that I am a daughter of God and that I have everything I ever need, ever imagine in Him. God fulfills all the things I lack. In fact, His giving overflows!

I really wish the women knew that they don't need to dress like that to get love; they're already loved! I wish the men knew that they don't need to get high in order to escape life; they're already free! They can actually have everything they need and they can actually get and keep it! But it seem as though it's a never ending chase and a never ending wait. I know that my ride will come and I don't have to scramble to make it come; it's not a never ending chase; not a never ending wait. (duhh... it says on the bus schedule lol)

Truth is: My Lord and God is coming back very soon.
Fact is: We can have satisfaction in this life in just knowing God.

I'm very very happy to know that God is here all along. It just breaks my heart when people don't and can't see God for who He really is and turn to worldly things instead. Not to say that I'm giving up on reaching out to others, it just saddens me to see hopelessness across their faces.

"...Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me..." Psalms 23:4