Psalm 13

¹ How long, LORD? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
² How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and day after day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

³ Look on me and answer, LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death,
⁴ and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,”
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

⁵ But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
⁶ I will sing the LORD’s praise,
for he has been good to me.

Rocking the Woods out of Rockwood!

My lovely Jen and Kayla and I went back to Camp Brebeuf to visit our friends/ family away from home yesterday. It was a lot of funn and crazy laughs like before. It was such a refreshing time because even though we haven't spoken to or had much contact with everyone, we were able to pick up where we left off from last year. It was just so natural being with everyone again.

It almost felt like I didn't leave the camp at all because it was all so familiar. I was sooo excited to be back there, even for only a little bit. We went to Curwins Pub after dinner. Lol it was 7pm when we got there. We are such rebels >=) Curwins is nice. It's so clean and quiet. The seven of us pretty much ran the place last night lol.

It was a lot of funn too because two random guys walked in with their guitars and asked if anyone played. One of my co-workers played so they just started jamming. It was just so cool and they played pretty well. Some of the songs they sang were pretty funny too so we all had a good laugh.

I never knew how much I missed camp and the people until I went back to see them. I love you all very very much =)

Outreach

MW and I were in DC cafe the past Thursday looking for people to talk to about Jesus Christ. We bought some food so we can sit down with whoever and chat with them while eating. A girl came and was about to sit down behind us but we asked her to come over and sit with us. She said sure with a smile on her face and came over.

We had a pretty good conversation to start and talked about random things about school. I think we both started to get nervous because we weren't getting to the Gospel. And also because we never got to the point with the guy we were talking to right before.

JL walked by and stopped by our table. He was wearing that black sweater with a short reference to a Bible verse (1 Cor 9:24) Lol so we awkwardly brought it up by asking JL (it was actually MW who pointed it out, I just refuse to believe that I'm awkward [sometimes]) Lol.

Anyways we finally got to Jesus. She said she was an atheist but she has a habit of reading random articles about religion. She was quite open to what we had to say and asked us some personal questions about our faith and our experience of God. We shared our testimonies and the first time we were encountered by God. After I finished my testimony, she smiled with her mouth open almost like she was in amazement. I have no idea what was actually going on in her head but I knew what was in mine.

After we left I started thinking about the time when I first met God and knew that He is real. Yes the purpose of that incident was for me to know that God really do exist. But who knew?! Who knew that almost 10 years later that the purpose of that specific incident was for that girl to hear! Who knew!?!? God has some pretty crazy planning going on hahaha =D

Lay Ho Fahn Ahh!

Satan! You are so annoying!!! Like seriously! ARGH!

Yee fahn do bay ah dye lo ><"

Can't wait till that day you totally get owned by Jesus!

And we'll all say "Well well well... Look how the turn table!"

reminiscence

For some reason, today feels like one of those days in 1B... March-ish. The temperature, the colour of the sky, the sun, the ice-cream... they all make me want to go for an aimless walk. I sort of know where I want to go, but it's just too far hahaha. So I left class early to sit outside slc and ate ice-cream for a bit then went home. Haha! I can't believe that the first time I did that was TWO YEARS AGO!

Old Chats

I searched "position paper" in my email account trying to see if I saved a copy of my (very last minute) assignment there already. Surprisingly, a very old gchat conversation came back and it had nothing to do with position papers ==" I briefly read through it and found an interesting quote my friend shared with me:

"God does not search around to find you a mate that's compatable, more than likely he's going to search around and find you a mate that's totally incompatible with you. Why? He's going to give you a mate that's strong in all the areas where they must be strong so that you may not be tempted beyond what you can bear. But he's also going to give you a mate who fails in some of the areas where you most do not want them to fail so that you become like Jesus. And what does that mean? It's so that you learn to love someone unconditionally who doesn't meet the conditions."

Kind of an interesting quote... I think this means that my husband will be a fat short man who can't stand me. bwahahaa... I'm kidding... though I hope not =="

Thanksgiving Dinner

I got back to TO on Friday of the Thanksgiving weekend. I took the Fedbus and got dropped off at York Mills to wait for my friend and sister to come pick me up for fellowship dinner. I waited at the station for ~1 hour or so and I've been watching this man walk up and down Yonge Street for ~1 hour (I know I can be such a creeper sometimes haha).

At first I thought it was deja vu or something because I thought I saw the man walk up the street already, how can he be back walking by me again? Turns out, he goes up to the intersection to wait for the lights to change to cross the street and stand in front of all the cars for 2 sec and walks up the lane with a piece of cardboard in his hands and ends up back on the same sidewalk and walks up to the intersection to wait for the light change to do the same thing again.

He must have done that at least 30+ times during the 1 hour I was there. I'm pretty sure he was doing that before I got there and was still there when I left. It was very interesting to watch because there were so many UW students around waiting for their ride home, random people walking on the street, so so many cars driving by. It seemed like no one saw him even though he was walking up to the cars. And occasionally, people would roll up their windows (I guess these people saw him)... just in case.

I tried to take a look at what was written on his piece of cardboard when he walks up the lanes, but I couldn't because most of the time, he was holding the cardboard upside down. But I was able to make out one of the words on his cardboard: "HOMELESS". That's when I knew something had to be done. I waited till my friend and sister got there to see what to do.

My sister and I decided to buy the man some food. I wish there were more options around but there weren't, so we just bought a sandwich and a bottle of juice from the gas station. I don't know how filling that sandwich was but that the "best" I could give him.

I handed him the items we bought and said "Jesus be with you". "Jesus be with you too" he said. In my head I was saying "well... He is, He's the one who told me to buy you this". hahaa I don't know. But was that enough? Was God's name and Gospel really proclaimed? Was the sandwich and juice enough to fill him up? I really don't know. I'm pretty sure we could have done way way more because for fellowship dinner, we were going to have LOBSTER! Lobster, potatoes, salad, salmon, and dessert.

So disgusting! Disgusting. Disgustingly delicious. D: Seriously, what the heck were we doing having a big dinner inside a nice warm home? Would the right thing be inviting the man to come have dinner with us and share with him? Lol I don't know how much the host would like that actually... but really! How was that even fellowship? The only time we prayed that night was right before dinner. All we did was eat, drink, and be merry (and watched "say yes to the dress").

I do thank the host for having us there and making us dinner. I'm really thankful for all the trouble (again) =D Dinner was delicious and I do appreciate the time it took to prepare such a big dinner for all of us. But it just didn't sit right... with me anyways.

[to be fair, I know not everyone knew what I saw so yea...]